Hopeless, Euphoria, Loveless

Credits to the owner of the picture: chrno(minitokyo.net)


 

Love like no other can give

Hoping like there is no tomorrow

Feeling happy all the time

Touching the heavens with your bare hands

Giving it all to the other

Leaving nothing for yourself at all

Looking forward for a brighter future

Hoping that everything will go as planned

Not only for yourself 

But for the both of you

All ends as a happy ending

A fairy tale

A romance like no other

But reality bites you a hundredfold 

Piercing your heart with a thousand lances 

Grasping your heart

Holding it like a crumpled paper

With no escaping the pain

 Embracing it

Regretting every decisions that you made

A shock of vengeance flowing down your spine

Crying with tears filled with darkness

You can't speak your heart anymore

But words begins flowing out 

Losing your mind out 

Giving up hope and all other forms of euphoria

And you begin to think that

The ray of light has left you completely

 You wanted to stand up

But the pain keeps on holding you down

Frustrations...

Disappointments....

Anger....

Insanity....

 "Loveless"

Nothingness...

         I tried to think that everything is okay, but reality killed me once again. I really thought that I can already grasp the scenario of what might the future be, but in the end... It was all in vain

Avoidance...
Hopelessness..

I was lost amidst an endless desert, engulfed in total darkness..
I was left alone..
Beaten down by my own weaknesses..
Never been able to feel what is like to live life in its fullest form

What did love has ever done to me?..
Why did I change into someone I never even knew I would become?...

I was naive.. I never thought that..
The moment I knew the voice of her heart was the time I will be lost forever in the track of time.

My words has no meaning, no life, that can reach her.. 
There is no such thing as coincidence...Only nothing..

Darkness..

~A darkened Life~

I'm sorry, but it is really difficult for us to be together..

I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings but this is the best I could think of for the both of us..

I'm sorry... I'm sorry

But I really did love you from the deepest chambers of my heart...

As I walk towards my end, 

completely blinded by the pain that binds me completely..

The pain that is aching inside of me..

As these lines whispers through my ears,

" I'm sorry but I love you"

I want to cry my heart out, 

but tears just won't come out..

I want to stop at the very moment of my life,

but my feelings are too strong to overcome..

I don't want to loose all the hope I can gather,

but the pain is slowly killing me from within..

The moment I stop walking,

will be the very moment that I would stop loving you..

So I walk endlessly,

without thinking anything else, except my love for you..

Even if my feet hurts..

Even if my vision blurs..

Even if my mind has gone empty..
Even if the entire life energy I have has gone away...

I won't stop...

Til Death itself comes to me..

Loveless: Death

Loveless: Afterlife

I'm siting here all alone..... Thinking.....Wondering.......


How my life might end without even a glimpse of happiness around me, without even a spark of brightness in my eyes, without even a hope of love in my heart...


It's depressing to think that all I did was worthless, all my efforts are gone to waste..
To my family...
Friends..
And my love..


All my achievements are gone..
If this was the life that had been given to me..
I would rather be a free spirit that watches the life of others than being alive without any target at all...


My only target is myself..
What would it be like to pull the trigger that will cost you a lifetime of regrets?..


But what regrets will that be if you are dead?...

You tend to end your purpose because of the fact that you have no purpose to begin with..
You changed your target to yourself because you don't have any target at all..
You gave yourself a reason to live because you have no reason at all..


What will it be like in the other side of the world?..
Will you find your happiness? or will you find regrets?...


Left in the middle of nothing except the serenity of darkness...

The Demon Within...

 

In the depth of darkness of the human heart,I dwell

In the wilderness, I lurk into the shadows

I see nothing but pure hatred and despair  in everyone's eyes

I am myself, the true horror of life

"Heaven strike me"

In this empty heart of mine except the scent of blood

Traces of scars in my wounds

The fire burning my soul

 

The greed I quench in thirst for my desires

The wrath that's ripping me apart

The pride I was once so proud of..

Gone in eternal darkness

I was left alone in the corners of hell

The devil that grows within me

The rage that surrounds me

The brilliance of light above me disperse

The aura of hope gave up..

Death is not an option...

Princess of Light

~You are my light~


As I glance through the windows of my room to watch the outside world, I look upon the darkness of the sky to find the traces of the moon, but I found nothing. The moon is simply covered by dozens of clouds. 

There's not a glimpse of light..
Not a glimpse of hope through the darkness of the night..
Days... Months... Years has passed by, and still I haven't seen the brightness of the moon..


I waited..
Until the right moment that I've been waiting for has come to light

In the vast ambiance of the skies, I saw a lady clothed with silver glittering armor, hair dyed with a color of gold, eyes with a color of the sea, rushing towards me, riding a white mythical creature with white wings called a Pegasus.


She rides straight on the road of red roses towards the windows of my room. I am blinded by the radiance that she has when she stepped down and stands graciously before me and smiled that gave warmth all over my body. 

I am petrified by her beauty. I slowly walked towards her, took her hand and kissed her.


"You are indeed the princess of light"

The Colors

( This is purely based on my opinion ^_^)

Have you ever thought about the meaning of different colors of life?..
These are the meanings I thought about in a Loveless way..


White- Color of Loneliness
Gold- Color of Emptiness
Blue- Color of Depression
Green- Color of Impurities
Red- Color of Pain
Orange- Color of Betrayal
Yellow- Color Deciet
Silver- Color of Despair
Gray- Color of Coldness


All these colors amounts to the color black because of the fact that the color of being empty is even worse than the color of death itself...

*Loveless: Devil Within

 

            You let yourself driven by hatred and you come across the line where you are given the chance to have eternal happiness but a lifetime of regrets.

Would you choose that kind of choice?..

The conscience deep inside of you is trembling in fear, fear that is very unknown to you..

Fear that can destroy the whole essence of life..

Fighting your demons doesn't really mean you have to destroy them completely with all your might..

Sometimes it's better to keep some for your own good.. ^_^

Loveless: Consumed by darkness

~Have you ever thought of a feeling where in you almost gave everything but nothing in return is given back to you?...
It's not about repaying or receiving something in return but the mere thought of being cared for is the only thing you could ask...nothing more, nothing less..
But it seems that life has a way of saying to us that not all the things in life can go in your own way, your own desires..Just plain nothing..~


Is it too much to ask for simple things in life??
Is it too much to ask for a single word coming out from that person's mouth??
I really thought that everything would be alright..
That everything happens for a purpose..but it seems to me that everything else is nothing but pure trash..

It's really hard to control your own personal emotions especially when that something triggers your mind to the extent of blowing yourself up...

All I'm asking...

Is you...