Just Saying #2

Why is it generation gap is really a big difference in terms of culture, tradition and the way people think nowadays?..

Example, kids from today's generation are more happy playing with their gadgets(laptops, computers, console games) rather than playing outside with children of the same age. It's like they are wasting their childhood moments, dreams and really, lack of exercises as a kid would really effect your health when you grow up into adulthood (trust me, it's really a nightmare). I really can't understand because of the fact that I grew up in a normal way and played the gadgets at the right time and right age wherein it won't invoke my daily life and activities.

Another good example would be people tend to use all their energy and attention at stupid things like an issue at the television that has no sense or nonsense at all. Why not instead focus their attention at important things like the status of our country, the problems of people and the goverment?. I know enetertainment nowadays are capturing the minds of young people but didn't they know that their country is on the verge of breaking down?.. Well just saying ^_^

Just another random post, no arguements, debates here. Just ranting random thoughts :) teeeheee

Food is Life

 "Food is the blessing of nature" - From the famous anime character Toriko

 

Food!,  Food!,  Food!,  Food!,  Food!,  

hehe.. Why is it so hard to go on diet?, to resist eating?.. Well, food is life, if you deprive yourself by not eating because you are afraid to destroy your figure, good luck on that. But for me and my girl, we just eat and eat because well, food is life.. hehe

Me and my girlfriend always have this principle regarding food that "We must always finish the food that's on our table, dont leave a single grain of rice because, it is basically nature's blessing", and one of our dreams is to travel the world and try the different kinds of food, culture and taste of people in different countries but unfortunately, it is still a fleeting dream for the both of us -_-(sigh).

Well, as life goes, we have to struggle to get what we want and hardwork will always lead to a dream come true.

Someday, somehow, we will pave our way to a place full of blessings of nature hehe...

A note, a pen and internet

As the days passed by, I am still here waiting for something to happen in my life, something huge that will make my heart jump out to the skies, but it seems that kind of something will not come as long as I stay still.

This is my life, work hard, keep on moving forward and never loose hope even though things are not the way I expected them to be . Well , this is me, desperate always looking for a solution to every wall that I have to break in front of me. I really dont have any other options or a way out except to accept the reality.

 

Sometimes, I asked myself, "what is that certain something that drives people's minds into keep on reaching that something that is not even there or so impossible to get?".. Well, I'm one of those people, call us dreamers, wanderers, sometimes my lack of open mindedness is my greatest weakness because I can't understand simple things yet I tend to rationalize so hard that makes the simpler things more complicated.

Life somehow surprised me yet from the bottom of my heart, I am thankful because experiences can only be learned through risky scenarios in life, that some kind of down the earth events that makes you think, "Am I really alive?", or "Am I just a floating organism observing things"

Questions keep on popping out of my head, (poink , poink, poink)

Happy Go Lucky..

Isn't it nice just to sit around all day doing nothing?. ^_^..
Isn't it nice not to worry anything else except what kind of food are you going to eat next?.. lol..
Life is always busy and will always be..
So take time to relax and reflect because it will help you find the answer you seek..

Heartless -=Night 5=-

As I see you in my dreams, always paving a way to reach a certain place..
You are there, trying to tell me a message..
A simple yet complicated kind of message..
I wonder why..


But you always remind me of shooting stars..
Appearing so gallantly, and disappears without a trace...
Like a sound of music trying to whisper through my heart


I ask myself..
"How many nights has it been since you told me you want me by your side?"..
"How many nights has it been since I last saw you hold my hand?"..


I reach to a certain point in my life that I kept on looking for the emptiness that I desire..

 

Will you be willing to wait for me?

I'm Poof!!!

Wew... 2 words.... I'm Poof!!!!...

Life for me is not easy as I thought it would be. Especially being a nurse. Okay this is another random rant from my personal life, So excuse my rantings here ^_^.. I'm sure everyone wants to talk a thing or two about their life on their blogs. hehe..

So anyways, Nurses here in our country is pretty sure rampant and very twisted because of the fact that we nurses have to graduate from a devastating 4 year college degree and after that we have to pass the gates of hell called the board exam. And no, our sacrifice doesn't stop there. Actually we have to earn experience as nurses in training (NO SALARY!!) before we can earn the title as staff nurses and guess what?.. Being a nurse in training is pretty tiresome because of the fact that we are giving our very best to pave our way of being a staff nurse but crazy as it seems. We are required to have so many trainings, attend a lot of seminar that exhaust us and by the minute we receive what we want, we are already what? 40 year old?. Lol Lol..

Oh well, the famous line we nurses always recite... "Love is service".. Lol.. I should really stop here hehehe.. well I just wanted to share it to every one especially to my fellow nurses out there who are experiencing the same situation as I am..

Good thing I have blog here, so I can really express what I can't in the real world.. ^_^..

The Joker..

Jokes are not meant to hurt but to deliver laughs and smiles in our faces..
But sometimes, it seems to have a different effect to others and to the people around us. I don't even know why they tend to misinterpret jokes that aren't that intentional or anything.

Jokes are meant to hide your true self, forms and the shape of your personality.. But as much as u try to hide your own thoughts, it will be ten times harder to accept reality itself when time the comes for you. You were wrong to think that you could hide yourself forever in eternal bliss and fake happiness..

That is why you have to be yourself when you try to joke the people around you...

There are really certain persons in your life who could see through your disguise even if you really are a joker, who could see the emptiness and burdens that you tend to keep inside..

And you can only hope that they won't be affected by your own problems because as far as you can persevere through life. There is no one else you could rely on except yourself in the end..

Jokes are really nothing but words, but if you try to deepen your insight.. You would see it differently than others would..

Reality itself is speaking in your mind..

End of the month # 8

Once again it's the end of the month special (^_^) and I am still loss at words here because there aren't a lot of things that occurred lately in my life that is worth sharing to you all. This month is almost as empty as it seems it would be for me, hmmmm.... Maybe because of the fact that I've been training to expand my career without any pay. Yes, I am working without any salary at all and I am very frustrated because my profession is not that promising as I thought it would be, but there is nothing I can do about it, except to just accept things as it is. Yet, another random rant from me :)..

I really would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone for their visits and support for my blog. I am very sorry for those blogs that I haven't visited because of the fact that I am not that active in my blog nowadays. I can only stay for one to two hours at max. But I will do my best to visit you all back everyday. I really hope that you will all continue to support this random personal blog that I created ^_^..

The Other Side of me...

I know almost every person in this world has two or more personalities that is always hidden deep inside of them. I know I have, maybe because we tend to use them only in times when we needed them or even in times of desperation.. I have a nasty personality that I always keep within me, nasty yet vigilant because of the fact that I only use it when I am protecting someone or myself..

I've been through a lot things, met different kind of people and I will surely assure you, one or two personalities can't help you live through this life without any consequences. You have to be adaptable to your environment especially in your workplace and in your home.

Why is it I'm sharing this??.. No particular reason really.. I just want to know if there is someone else out there that is also like me.. hehe lols..

I am not psyche or anything because I know and learned about multiple personality disorder in our psychology subject, but what I am experiencing is very different. It's more of like a defense mechanism that I personally made to increase my patience and tolerance against stupid people who is living here in this world.

I notice it's almost been two weeks since my last post ^_^. I've been through a lot of work lately, I dodged a very huge bullet that's been bugging me for almost a month, but now it's been taken care of :).. Wish you all the best everyone.. Keep on blogging..

New Years Resolution

1st post for the year 2012...^_^

First of all, I would like to welcome the year 2012 with a big smile and a new hope that it will give us more opportunities and strength to come. Let's leave all the emotional burdens that we had on the year 2011 and start a new life on 2012 because I have a gut feeling that this year would give us a brighter view on our future.. ^_^

Secondly, I would like to Thank everyone for the everlasting support that you all gave to me last year, without all of you, my blog would have never been able to express its true meaning and I hope that my blog filled you with exceptional feelings that it is trying to deliver to you all.. ^_^

Lastly, I would like to ask you all...


"What are your New Years Resolution for 2012?"..


For me?.. Nothing much really, I'm just hoping for a better career, good health and a more stronger relationship in my family, friends, to my love and most of all to my God. I never actually want a more grandeur life because I realize that life is more than just riches and fame. Hmmmmm, It's more of like just eating what's in the table but it really really satisfies your hunger and fills what you wanted....

I just wanted to have an amazing life that gives me thrills and happiness, But we all know that happiness cannot be obtain so easily, that is why we have to work harder and more efficiently to achieve what we want in our life... Well, I guess my point is that, we just got to have the heart to do what we want to benefit ourselves first before we can help others. Because no matter what we do, we always have to be the 1st one to try before we can give it others.. ^_^..

Have a great Year 2012 ahead to all of you ^_^

"Woke up on the wrong side of the bed"

If you were to face a continuous bad mornings and events that doesn't usually occur every time you wake up, what would be your first reaction?.. Surprised and irritable right?.. toinkz..

Christmas is fast approaching but here I am catching a bad cold because of weather changes everyday. Here I am, trying to adjust to every tiny little things I call insecurities in my life. Here I am trying to finish the project that I still haven't started.. lols.. Ranting has been a habit which is not good, so before I start ranting about my life, lets go to the main topic at hand ^_^...

I know almost everybody experience once or twice or almost every time in their lives, waking up on the wrong side of their bed, which is a very troublesome event because of the fact that instead of starting your morning right and clean, you end up being trap in the middle of a mystery and left with a very big question at the top of your head ^_^..

So if this happens to you, what will you do?...

In my own opinion, you should just try to forget about that certain thing and try to start with your morning rituals or if not. Try to eat your breakfast because you will certainly be empty headed if your stomach is also empty, and if that doesn't work. I suggest you should just sleep for a little because you might wake up again in the right side of your bed :).. lols

Another random thought I guess since I am very bored right now with nothing else to do except stare at my blog thinking and thinking what should I write next.. :)

Well Good day to all of you ^_^.. thanks for dropping by here..

A Quick Thought...

"If you were to face the greatest dilemma that would change your entire life forever....


Would you take the bet?.. knowing that it can really hurt the ones you love but as a matter of fact, you are saving them against dangers and unsolved misunderstandings..


It's like you are sacrificing yourself for others but in return you are hated for it.."

Just a thought I would like to share with you all since we are face with a lot of questions that we have to think of carefully before answering them because our decisions will not only affect ourselves, but also the people around us. Especially our family and love ones.

Reminiscence...

Did it ever occur to you all, that every time we wake up every morning, we tend to remember each and every details of what happened in our lives. Especially the past, we are what we are because of the past. We became mature enough to handle our own problems because of the mistakes we once experience in the past...

People who experienced pain and suffering from their previous life tends to forget their past but the past is not that easy to forget, especially if it had a big impact in your life. I for one, had experienced a lot of things in life, be it painful, sad, happy moments... But I never wanted to forget any of it, because they are all precious memories that made me what I am today.

Sure there are a lot of traumatizing memories that gives us reason to shut down those pathetic scenarios in our life but no matter what we do, we will always remember it, that is why it is better to face and challenge our fears than to keep on running away from it. Just like the parts of our body, memories are like the embodiment of what we might become in the future....

I wake up each day, thinking if I could redo my past, my history but there are some things that made me say " If I redid my past, I would have never met the people that I love in the present, I would have never experienced the happy and enjoyable moments that I have in my family and friends today"..

That's why, rather than changing your past, keep on remembering it ^_^...

Keep on remembering the painful things that made you strong as you are today...

Keep on remembering the happy moments that made you feel so alive and thankful...

Keep on remembering the love that you missed so much and never felt....

And then I wake up each day, reminiscing my past, that reminded me that

"I AM THE RULER OF MY OWN WORLD"

Stressful Days..

Wew.. Looks like it's been a long since I wrote my previous random rant from my life lols ^_^.
Well, I got nothing to do anyway, So I will just write something down here.. ^_^

Have you ever felt the feeling that  you are burned down even though you didn't done any work all day?.. That kind of feeling where in you just sat down staring at blank pages of the internet with nothing else around you. You have this uneasy feeling.

Some called it, being in a trance or way of meditation but I personally think it's something else. Coz when you wake up from it, you feel so tired. Wondering why time just passed by just like that. You did nothing yet you feel so tired...

Artist described that kind of feeling of being in a slump...
As a nurse, I described it as a feeling of being burned out..
But personally I think it's something else.. I don't know why but I really feel a lot burdens that I carry on my shoulders..

I think it's what you call "the burden of life"..
Just a thought I would like to share with you all..

Don't let yourself be pressured by certain things especially if it's just a small obstacle in your way, let it slide just for a little while because there are really unpredictable scenarios in life that you least expect that would really hit you hard in the head.

Just be natural.. Just be yourself ^_^..

Loveless: Silence..

Doesn't always meant to answer you in a positive way, like okay, yes, I do, etc..
If it did answered your question, it's not completely what you think it is..
You will be surprised what it really meant, especially if the answer is void and twisted..

And the worst part of it all,
Hesitation takes control, that is why the person you asked for will remain silent rather than answering your questions..

In my opinion, if she tells you directly with words and not silence, then for sure she is sure about her feelings without a glimpse of hesitation and doubts. But for someone who is not sure and very hesitant what to say to you, silence is their best approach...

Another thing is that, it doesn't mean anything else..

If you are smart enough not to open the gate to paranoia... Surely you won't be fooled by silence..But if you are completely deceived, you will surely taste the pain you never felt before and you will find yourself trapped in a deep dark open well with nothing else around you..

Except...

Silence..




Be very careful with someone who you really trust but never really tells you anything but lies and silence....

Loveless: Afterlife

I'm siting here all alone..... Thinking.....Wondering.......


How my life might end without even a glimpse of happiness around me, without even a spark of brightness in my eyes, without even a hope of love in my heart...


It's depressing to think that all I did was worthless, all my efforts are gone to waste..
To my family...
Friends..
And my love..


All my achievements are gone..
If this was the life that had been given to me..
I would rather be a free spirit that watches the life of others than being alive without any target at all...


My only target is myself..
What would it be like to pull the trigger that will cost you a lifetime of regrets?..


But what regrets will that be if you are dead?...

You tend to end your purpose because of the fact that you have no purpose to begin with..
You changed your target to yourself because you don't have any target at all..
You gave yourself a reason to live because you have no reason at all..


What will it be like in the other side of the world?..
Will you find your happiness? or will you find regrets?...


Left in the middle of nothing except the serenity of darkness...

Endless Days...

I guess this is one of those days which I have nothing to do except stare at my computer and surf the internet. Time is very slow when you are not enjoying yourself but goes by pretty fast when you are having a blast, one of the ironies of life ^_^...

So anyway, here I am again with another random post because it's been a while since my last post. What do you do anyway in a boring day like this?, where time seems to be in control..
In my case, I usually play internet games, watch TV, and hang out with my friends but today is not just my day. I am bored with playing internet games because.. well, its too boring already! ^_^.. There's nothing good to watch on TV and my friends are doing things their own way which leave me nothing except my blog.. I'm very thankful to my friend who introduced me into the blogging world, because of that, I met all kinds of people here, I am earning a little for myself and here, I can express anything I don't normally express in reality.

That is why to my fellow bloggers out there, just keep on blogging yah!, We rock the world through our writings and posts ^_^.. We are cool and amazing in our own special ways. We are unique individuals in the blogging world and of course we are even more amazing as a person..

A new month... A new reflection to ponder...

I am still at loss of words on what I am going to post on my blog at the start of the month of October. I am what you call in the mode of slump I guess. I've been in a deep thought these past few days because of the fact that nothing really changes at the start of the new month, But then I realize that it is not that there was no change in life. It was because I didn't change anything..

That is why I am here writing all about a new change, a new look, a new adventure, but it is up to you if you like changes. If you are a type of person that easily adjust to changes, then you are very adventurous but if you are a type of person like myself who just wants to stick to the present without changing anything worthy, then it is likely that's because we are the kinds who really wants to tackle things from starting til the end..

Change is really important especially when you are trapped in a corner where you have nothing left except to change into someone better. The only thing that you should be concerned of is the outcome. Always be careful who you want to become in your life...

So, anyways, here's a quote I would like to share with all of you..

Change?...

What's the difference if you change something?..

Will it benefit you? or will it destroy you?..

Will it turn you into someone better?.... or will it turn you into someone much worse?..

People tend to change themselves because of the unsatisfactory feelings of their own personal life, but little that they know that change can sometimes turn you into something indifferent from who you really are..

Maybe into someone you really detest or someone that you possibly regret into changing...

Will you still take the risk?

End of The Month #3

This has been a very stressful month for me and my life. I don't have anyone to share my problems with except in this blog only. My parents keeps on pressuring and bugging me what to do in my career, even though they don't tell me anything, I can see it clearly in their eyes. My girlfriend and I always had misunderstanding on simple things but even the simple things could lead to a greater wrath in the end. I really don't know what my priority number in her life because I feel that I am less important to her right now. Oh well, I couldn't help it if she felt that way to me. I just hope that she still loves me. Ooohh Boy.. Problems just keep on rising on and on and on...

All I could do is to let it all out in this blog since I don' have anyone, my best friend is always busy but I know he is not, my friends are here and there on other places, also thinking what to do with their life, so I could not bother them that much..
I just hope that my random rantings will not affect the theme of my blog ^_^...lols

So anyways, even with all the downside, there are always what we call enlightenment which is very strong and very solid within us. I think it is some kind of like a trigger which will be opened once we run out of fuel and just want to run away from all our problems in our life. My enlightenment made me stronger but my trust to the people around me has been lessened. I know that only a selected persons can be close to your life but I didn't expect that the one closest to you could betray you. It's not that complicated of a problem actually but as I said, even the simple of the simplest could greatly affect your own self...

Life as we know is very unpredictable. We don't know when the fire within us will be gone. That is why we have to live life to the fullest without any regrets, but sadly, there will always be regrets.
There will always be thorns on our path, pain that we couldn't imagine, problems that we have yet to face. I just hope that I could survive all these problems that is being bombarded to me..

Just another random rant from me ^_^ - Loveless

And here's another picture to tackle on...

~My Ideal girl, I really hope she is real ^_^~

Tranquility

Did it ever cross your mind the meaning of peace and happiness?
The serenity of life?..
The flowing of unlimited love?..

I guess life is all about finding yourself, your own happiness and to the people around you. All about creating multiple opportunities and challenges that you must face head on in order to get the desires that you ever wanted in life, without these elements, life as we know could be as simple as we think it is..

Tranquility is such a strong word for us to discover but easy to understand. I never dream of anything big in my life, just simple things, but I know that even the most simple things in life could be more complicated than you can ever imagine. That is why we have to strive harder to get the tranquility that we seek..

Life is really is finding about yourself but the more you realize about your true self, the more broader your life becomes, the unlimited choices and decisions we make could affect our way of living life to its fullest. The more you realize that what you've done in your life is still not enough, the more the reason why we desire for more..



Why can't anyone find peace in their heart.
They only found temporary peace but not eternal..



Hmmmmmm Just a thought to share...