Darkness..

~A darkened Life~

I'm sorry, but it is really difficult for us to be together..

I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings but this is the best I could think of for the both of us..

I'm sorry... I'm sorry

But I really did love you from the deepest chambers of my heart...

As I walk towards my end, 

completely blinded by the pain that binds me completely..

The pain that is aching inside of me..

As these lines whispers through my ears,

" I'm sorry but I love you"

I want to cry my heart out, 

but tears just won't come out..

I want to stop at the very moment of my life,

but my feelings are too strong to overcome..

I don't want to loose all the hope I can gather,

but the pain is slowly killing me from within..

The moment I stop walking,

will be the very moment that I would stop loving you..

So I walk endlessly,

without thinking anything else, except my love for you..

Even if my feet hurts..

Even if my vision blurs..

Even if my mind has gone empty..
Even if the entire life energy I have has gone away...

I won't stop...

Til Death itself comes to me..

Loveless: Death

Loveless: Betrayal

So many things left unsaid and done..
So many heartaches and problems yet unsolved
So many disguises and thoughts left hanging on the edge
All of these things, I carry on my shoulders..
But you run away from all of it..

I gave up my heart for you..
But you chose to trash it away like it was nothing...
I gave up my will just to see you smile..
Instead, you pushed me away like I was some dirt in your path
I told you everything that needs to be said..
But you sealed your heart for me not to enter..


What can I do?..
Instead to hope for the best and for the best to come..
My only wish is that..
I am not looking for false dreams
Because I will be devastated by betrayal of those I gave my everything..

I can only hope for an illusion of you by my side..
I can only wish for a delusion that we will be together..
But when I wake up from all of these..
I know what kind of pain will be waiting for me..


Betrayal is one thing..
But living a never ending emptiness is a lot worse than death..

Loveless: Afterlife

I'm siting here all alone..... Thinking.....Wondering.......


How my life might end without even a glimpse of happiness around me, without even a spark of brightness in my eyes, without even a hope of love in my heart...


It's depressing to think that all I did was worthless, all my efforts are gone to waste..
To my family...
Friends..
And my love..


All my achievements are gone..
If this was the life that had been given to me..
I would rather be a free spirit that watches the life of others than being alive without any target at all...


My only target is myself..
What would it be like to pull the trigger that will cost you a lifetime of regrets?..


But what regrets will that be if you are dead?...

You tend to end your purpose because of the fact that you have no purpose to begin with..
You changed your target to yourself because you don't have any target at all..
You gave yourself a reason to live because you have no reason at all..


What will it be like in the other side of the world?..
Will you find your happiness? or will you find regrets?...


Left in the middle of nothing except the serenity of darkness...

The Demon Within...

 

In the depth of darkness of the human heart,I dwell

In the wilderness, I lurk into the shadows

I see nothing but pure hatred and despair  in everyone's eyes

I am myself, the true horror of life

"Heaven strike me"

In this empty heart of mine except the scent of blood

Traces of scars in my wounds

The fire burning my soul

 

The greed I quench in thirst for my desires

The wrath that's ripping me apart

The pride I was once so proud of..

Gone in eternal darkness

I was left alone in the corners of hell

The devil that grows within me

The rage that surrounds me

The brilliance of light above me disperse

The aura of hope gave up..

Death is not an option...