Back after a long journey

Hey guys It's good to be back blogging again after so many years of leaving my blog "Loveless". It's been a heck of a journey I've experienced in my life. Now Here I am, taking another step in my life and if I may say, It's going to be an adventurous, amazing soon to be a big leap in my life..

So let's get it on :3..

Picture owned by : doooody from minitokyo.net

Wordless wednesday #6

DESCRIBE?.. o_0 HAHA

Just Saying #2

Why is it generation gap is really a big difference in terms of culture, tradition and the way people think nowadays?..

Example, kids from today's generation are more happy playing with their gadgets(laptops, computers, console games) rather than playing outside with children of the same age. It's like they are wasting their childhood moments, dreams and really, lack of exercises as a kid would really effect your health when you grow up into adulthood (trust me, it's really a nightmare). I really can't understand because of the fact that I grew up in a normal way and played the gadgets at the right time and right age wherein it won't invoke my daily life and activities.

Another good example would be people tend to use all their energy and attention at stupid things like an issue at the television that has no sense or nonsense at all. Why not instead focus their attention at important things like the status of our country, the problems of people and the goverment?. I know enetertainment nowadays are capturing the minds of young people but didn't they know that their country is on the verge of breaking down?.. Well just saying ^_^

Just another random post, no arguements, debates here. Just ranting random thoughts :) teeeheee

Food is Life

 "Food is the blessing of nature" - From the famous anime character Toriko

 

Food!,  Food!,  Food!,  Food!,  Food!,  

hehe.. Why is it so hard to go on diet?, to resist eating?.. Well, food is life, if you deprive yourself by not eating because you are afraid to destroy your figure, good luck on that. But for me and my girl, we just eat and eat because well, food is life.. hehe

Me and my girlfriend always have this principle regarding food that "We must always finish the food that's on our table, dont leave a single grain of rice because, it is basically nature's blessing", and one of our dreams is to travel the world and try the different kinds of food, culture and taste of people in different countries but unfortunately, it is still a fleeting dream for the both of us -_-(sigh).

Well, as life goes, we have to struggle to get what we want and hardwork will always lead to a dream come true.

Someday, somehow, we will pave our way to a place full of blessings of nature hehe...

A note, a pen and internet

As the days passed by, I am still here waiting for something to happen in my life, something huge that will make my heart jump out to the skies, but it seems that kind of something will not come as long as I stay still.

This is my life, work hard, keep on moving forward and never loose hope even though things are not the way I expected them to be . Well , this is me, desperate always looking for a solution to every wall that I have to break in front of me. I really dont have any other options or a way out except to accept the reality.

 

Sometimes, I asked myself, "what is that certain something that drives people's minds into keep on reaching that something that is not even there or so impossible to get?".. Well, I'm one of those people, call us dreamers, wanderers, sometimes my lack of open mindedness is my greatest weakness because I can't understand simple things yet I tend to rationalize so hard that makes the simpler things more complicated.

Life somehow surprised me yet from the bottom of my heart, I am thankful because experiences can only be learned through risky scenarios in life, that some kind of down the earth events that makes you think, "Am I really alive?", or "Am I just a floating organism observing things"

Questions keep on popping out of my head, (poink , poink, poink)

End of the month # 9

Wew looks like I missed a lot of "end of the month" issues here.
Well, what can I say?.. Life's been busy for me, from making a lot mistakes to learning from all of it is just too much to swallow. ^_^, but one things for sure..

Its fun to learn from all of these right?.. that's what life is all about..
Learning and experiencing a lot of things even though some of those are very hard to take in. All you need to know is that, life is all about having some fun no matter how difficult things could get ^_^..

Great thing about these experiences is that, they come in small and big packages haha... Especially at your workplace where in you will be meeting a lot of people, from strangers to friends and from certain people to annoying ones that's for sure :).. I really wanted to emphasize these people because they are also considered as a factor that will be affecting your life and how your life's experiences would turn out to be something else.. hmmmmm I would like to call them as "Influences for life's improvement"..

Oh well.. Just another rant from me I think ^_^..

Note: This article is intended for the month of May :)

Heartless -=Night 5=-

As I see you in my dreams, always paving a way to reach a certain place..
You are there, trying to tell me a message..
A simple yet complicated kind of message..
I wonder why..


But you always remind me of shooting stars..
Appearing so gallantly, and disappears without a trace...
Like a sound of music trying to whisper through my heart


I ask myself..
"How many nights has it been since you told me you want me by your side?"..
"How many nights has it been since I last saw you hold my hand?"..


I reach to a certain point in my life that I kept on looking for the emptiness that I desire..

 

Will you be willing to wait for me?

Mothers day...

I'm Poof!!!

Wew... 2 words.... I'm Poof!!!!...

Life for me is not easy as I thought it would be. Especially being a nurse. Okay this is another random rant from my personal life, So excuse my rantings here ^_^.. I'm sure everyone wants to talk a thing or two about their life on their blogs. hehe..

So anyways, Nurses here in our country is pretty sure rampant and very twisted because of the fact that we nurses have to graduate from a devastating 4 year college degree and after that we have to pass the gates of hell called the board exam. And no, our sacrifice doesn't stop there. Actually we have to earn experience as nurses in training (NO SALARY!!) before we can earn the title as staff nurses and guess what?.. Being a nurse in training is pretty tiresome because of the fact that we are giving our very best to pave our way of being a staff nurse but crazy as it seems. We are required to have so many trainings, attend a lot of seminar that exhaust us and by the minute we receive what we want, we are already what? 40 year old?. Lol Lol..

Oh well, the famous line we nurses always recite... "Love is service".. Lol.. I should really stop here hehehe.. well I just wanted to share it to every one especially to my fellow nurses out there who are experiencing the same situation as I am..

Good thing I have blog here, so I can really express what I can't in the real world.. ^_^..

Loveless by Rekazan

I just wanted to share this picture made by my best friend for me and my website entitled Loveless... ^_^

You can find some of his works here rekazan.deviantart.com/gallery


Try to read the inscription on the picture.. I'm sure you will really love it. You will really feel his sense of passion towards the people he loved and towards the person he will always remember as his special someone ^_^..

It's all about her...

She said to me that 

She waited for a very long time for me to arrive

But she doesn't know

That I am there just behind her

Silently gazing at her..

She tells me everyday that she loves me..

But I tell her every hour of her infinite and pure beauty

She completes me in every small things..

She gave me a letter,

Inside of it tells our stories together

But she is clueless about a certain memory

That she doesn't remember

Because in fact,

Every time when she falls asleep 

I was there making a story of how she dreams..

I told her she is the only one..

But she told me in return..

That she doesn't believe in fairy tales..

So I told her that..

We are not living in a fairy tale.. 

We are living by our individual chapters of our life..

And the chapter that I am reading today

Is all about you..

She gave me a sudden smile on her face

Almost as if I'm looking at a mirror 

Because I'm smiling back at her

In that moment

It's almost like we are the only ones left.

But I was wrong..

She is the only one left in my mind..

In the end.. 

It was never about me from the start..

It's all about her...

The Joker..

Jokes are not meant to hurt but to deliver laughs and smiles in our faces..
But sometimes, it seems to have a different effect to others and to the people around us. I don't even know why they tend to misinterpret jokes that aren't that intentional or anything.

Jokes are meant to hide your true self, forms and the shape of your personality.. But as much as u try to hide your own thoughts, it will be ten times harder to accept reality itself when time the comes for you. You were wrong to think that you could hide yourself forever in eternal bliss and fake happiness..

That is why you have to be yourself when you try to joke the people around you...

There are really certain persons in your life who could see through your disguise even if you really are a joker, who could see the emptiness and burdens that you tend to keep inside..

And you can only hope that they won't be affected by your own problems because as far as you can persevere through life. There is no one else you could rely on except yourself in the end..

Jokes are really nothing but words, but if you try to deepen your insight.. You would see it differently than others would..

Reality itself is speaking in your mind..

Shivering Skies..

I ran away from every little things..
I lost sight of what is important to me..
I gave every inch of hope that is used to be my strength..
I ran away from life..
I ran away from love..
And most of all..
I ran away from all the rotten things life has gave to me..

But I never lost anything..
The irony of life stunned me.. Almost as if I was just a ghost from the very start..
Something that has been predicted before there is even an beginning..

I only wished for my existence to be felt..
But it never occurred to anyone else...
The only trace left was the scent of blue roses burning, left to wither, never to be touched again..

The feeling of being important to the person you want is too much to ask, that is why there's nothing left at the end of the road except the word... Detour...
It's like you've reached the end of your goal.. Never seeking what is beyond it.
Feeling contented and satisfied of everything..
Deserving what is right for you.. Deserving what is best for the both of you.. 

~Gift From My Love~

 

One look in your eyes is all I need

One strand of your hair is all that's needed

And a thousands of unexplained phenomenon 

That's been bugging me 

Every time our paths intertwined...

A key to mend your broken..

A key to open the chambers of your heart

A pendant of everlasting Love...

I got to say that I'm very lucky to receive such gifts from my love. This picture was taken last Feb 14, during valentines day, But I didn't have the luxury to entry it in my blog :P.. 

Time..

I feel so disoriented right now. I didn't even realize that we're already on the month of love.. :)... Hmmm Time really flies so fast when you are enjoying yourself ^_^...

So how's everyone doing right now?.. What are your plans on Valentines day?.. Or do you even have a date on Valentines?.. haha.. People nowadays are crazy over heels on having a date during the season of love... Is it wrong to spend Valentines alone?.. or with family? or with friends? because really, it's just a matter of how you are going to spend the occasion, not on finding a date or anything like that. Cupid will find the way for you, that's for sure.

Love will find you, so don't try to force love, just be patient about it coz you will be surprised what will be in store for you in the future.. hehe just a little random advice from me (loveless) lol...

I shouldn't be giving you advices when the name of my blog is loveless right?.. haha.. well anyways, I hope you all know the true meaning of my blog and meaning behind loveless because it's not about the literal meaning but the truth behind every love stories and chapters of our lives ^_^...

I wish you all the love you will need this month of love...

End of the month # 8

Once again it's the end of the month special (^_^) and I am still loss at words here because there aren't a lot of things that occurred lately in my life that is worth sharing to you all. This month is almost as empty as it seems it would be for me, hmmmm.... Maybe because of the fact that I've been training to expand my career without any pay. Yes, I am working without any salary at all and I am very frustrated because my profession is not that promising as I thought it would be, but there is nothing I can do about it, except to just accept things as it is. Yet, another random rant from me :)..

I really would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone for their visits and support for my blog. I am very sorry for those blogs that I haven't visited because of the fact that I am not that active in my blog nowadays. I can only stay for one to two hours at max. But I will do my best to visit you all back everyday. I really hope that you will all continue to support this random personal blog that I created ^_^..

Happy Monthsary...

HAPPY 13th MONTHSARY 

^_^ to me and my baby ^_^

I don't know if this is by custom or tradition or just plain preferences from each individual, but me and my girlfriend are always celebrating the day she answered to my confession. Currently we are 13 months and I hope that we are still going strong all the way up to the end..

I just wanted to share to you all about how love can really hurt you, trample everything you've been working and sacrificing for.. It will almost diminish each and every single thing that you hold dear in your life. But one things for sure, everything that had been lost to you will be eventually returned to you ten to hundred times fold.

Just like the saying, "no pain, no gain"..

But in love, there is everything, every single experience and scenarios that you will encounter will serve as your shield towards a greater challenge, that is why perseverance, trust and faith are very important... ^_^

Defeat...

I've long known my defeat 

The moment I gaze upon your cold eyes

I tried to touch you 

To feel what it's like to be driven by my own fear of defeat

But you seem so far yet so close..

I tried to pierce through your fragile glass armor 

But the reach of my spear is limited

You are far from my reach

But my defeat was soon foretold 

You reach out to me..

Easily broke the layers of my dragon scale armor

Just by the touch of your soft tender hands

My defeat was certain..

You are there.. 

Still staring at me with your cold eyes

Never wavering presence

Aura that emits instant death

You killed me..

You killed the demon within me

You saved me from my darkness

You gave me peace and hope 

In this never ending despair and misery

You gave me defeat 

To see the true light that's been taken away from me

I've known my defeat..

Since the day you try to hold on to me..

My light...

Wordless Wednesday # 8

Travel through the wilderness ^_^

The Other Side of me...

I know almost every person in this world has two or more personalities that is always hidden deep inside of them. I know I have, maybe because we tend to use them only in times when we needed them or even in times of desperation.. I have a nasty personality that I always keep within me, nasty yet vigilant because of the fact that I only use it when I am protecting someone or myself..

I've been through a lot things, met different kind of people and I will surely assure you, one or two personalities can't help you live through this life without any consequences. You have to be adaptable to your environment especially in your workplace and in your home.

Why is it I'm sharing this??.. No particular reason really.. I just want to know if there is someone else out there that is also like me.. hehe lols..

I am not psyche or anything because I know and learned about multiple personality disorder in our psychology subject, but what I am experiencing is very different. It's more of like a defense mechanism that I personally made to increase my patience and tolerance against stupid people who is living here in this world.

I notice it's almost been two weeks since my last post ^_^. I've been through a lot of work lately, I dodged a very huge bullet that's been bugging me for almost a month, but now it's been taken care of :).. Wish you all the best everyone.. Keep on blogging..