Missing my lover

Missing my lover 

Every moment I spend, 

A day without her by my side is like a having a leech that slowly sips away the blood from my veins

As I turn side to side...

Wandering everywhere to places we used to hang out with

But still I couldn't find her anywhere 

No matter how hard I try to reach out for her in the light

Calling her name as tears reflecting the bitterness of the skies above my never ending sorrows

Time is indeed cruel..

I can only wait and wait for the right moment 

Until the last breathe I could muster

Til the last ounce of strength I have 

And I could finally say to her 

How much I missed her

Her smile...

Her laugh...

Her tears of joy...

Her touch....

Her warmth...

Her happiness....

Her forever image that won't burn out in my mind 

The only one that could bring out the best of me

She alone can bring a thousand tears from my living self of total happiness

I miss her so much..My lover...

Hopeless, Euphoria, Loveless

Credits to the owner of the picture: chrno(minitokyo.net)


 

Love like no other can give

Hoping like there is no tomorrow

Feeling happy all the time

Touching the heavens with your bare hands

Giving it all to the other

Leaving nothing for yourself at all

Looking forward for a brighter future

Hoping that everything will go as planned

Not only for yourself 

But for the both of you

All ends as a happy ending

A fairy tale

A romance like no other

But reality bites you a hundredfold 

Piercing your heart with a thousand lances 

Grasping your heart

Holding it like a crumpled paper

With no escaping the pain

 Embracing it

Regretting every decisions that you made

A shock of vengeance flowing down your spine

Crying with tears filled with darkness

You can't speak your heart anymore

But words begins flowing out 

Losing your mind out 

Giving up hope and all other forms of euphoria

And you begin to think that

The ray of light has left you completely

 You wanted to stand up

But the pain keeps on holding you down

Frustrations...

Disappointments....

Anger....

Insanity....

 "Loveless"

Power

As my body falls down the ground

I still feel indestructible on the inside

Unlimited Energy coursing through my veins

The feeling of being undefeated

But most of the time 

I may crawl

Unsure if I can reach you

To defeat you

Always losing my way around you

I may fall down again and again

I might not fight anymore

 But I will always come back 

Stronger than I can ever be

Striving to be the one

The one person I can be

To give my very best i everything I do

In anyway I can

Finding the best solution

The greatness within

The untouched potential that even I am unaware of

So just you wait and see

Because no matter how hard you try to escape

I will always come to you

To challenge you

To conquer every hurdle

I will always believe

In a fight called life

 

Back after a long journey

Hey guys It's good to be back blogging again after so many years of leaving my blog "Loveless". It's been a heck of a journey I've experienced in my life. Now Here I am, taking another step in my life and if I may say, It's going to be an adventurous, amazing soon to be a big leap in my life..

So let's get it on :3..

Picture owned by : doooody from minitokyo.net

This is not Goodbye..

Many years had passed by

Since the last time I saw your sweet and heartwarming smile

I gave up everything just to see it one last time

I've lost everything, even my dreams

Now here I am again

Crying

Missing you as every second of my time runs out

It's like I'm standing alone

Calling out for you

Wandering why you are not responding to anything I've been saying

I don't know anymore...

It's like I don't have a place in your heart

I asked myself

"Is this goodbye?"

Then suddenly tears run down my face

Tears that are unknown even to myself

You are there

Staring at me with coldness in your eyes

It's striking me with questions

 

"Are you giving up on me?."

"On us?"

"On everything we dreamed for?"

Then all of the sudden

A certain feeling tingling all over my body

Holding my tears back to where it came from

Slowly turning back time 

To where and when we had fall to each others arms

Slowly pacing back in time...

Where we don't even know how to fall in love

 Turning Back little by little..

Until such time 

I was standing under a moonlight

I saw you...

I smiled..

This is not Goodbye...

 

Wordless wednesday #6

DESCRIBE?.. o_0 HAHA

Just Saying #2

Why is it generation gap is really a big difference in terms of culture, tradition and the way people think nowadays?..

Example, kids from today's generation are more happy playing with their gadgets(laptops, computers, console games) rather than playing outside with children of the same age. It's like they are wasting their childhood moments, dreams and really, lack of exercises as a kid would really effect your health when you grow up into adulthood (trust me, it's really a nightmare). I really can't understand because of the fact that I grew up in a normal way and played the gadgets at the right time and right age wherein it won't invoke my daily life and activities.

Another good example would be people tend to use all their energy and attention at stupid things like an issue at the television that has no sense or nonsense at all. Why not instead focus their attention at important things like the status of our country, the problems of people and the goverment?. I know enetertainment nowadays are capturing the minds of young people but didn't they know that their country is on the verge of breaking down?.. Well just saying ^_^

Just another random post, no arguements, debates here. Just ranting random thoughts :) teeeheee

Food is Life

 "Food is the blessing of nature" - From the famous anime character Toriko

 

Food!,  Food!,  Food!,  Food!,  Food!,  

hehe.. Why is it so hard to go on diet?, to resist eating?.. Well, food is life, if you deprive yourself by not eating because you are afraid to destroy your figure, good luck on that. But for me and my girl, we just eat and eat because well, food is life.. hehe

Me and my girlfriend always have this principle regarding food that "We must always finish the food that's on our table, dont leave a single grain of rice because, it is basically nature's blessing", and one of our dreams is to travel the world and try the different kinds of food, culture and taste of people in different countries but unfortunately, it is still a fleeting dream for the both of us -_-(sigh).

Well, as life goes, we have to struggle to get what we want and hardwork will always lead to a dream come true.

Someday, somehow, we will pave our way to a place full of blessings of nature hehe...

A note, a pen and internet

As the days passed by, I am still here waiting for something to happen in my life, something huge that will make my heart jump out to the skies, but it seems that kind of something will not come as long as I stay still.

This is my life, work hard, keep on moving forward and never loose hope even though things are not the way I expected them to be . Well , this is me, desperate always looking for a solution to every wall that I have to break in front of me. I really dont have any other options or a way out except to accept the reality.

 

Sometimes, I asked myself, "what is that certain something that drives people's minds into keep on reaching that something that is not even there or so impossible to get?".. Well, I'm one of those people, call us dreamers, wanderers, sometimes my lack of open mindedness is my greatest weakness because I can't understand simple things yet I tend to rationalize so hard that makes the simpler things more complicated.

Life somehow surprised me yet from the bottom of my heart, I am thankful because experiences can only be learned through risky scenarios in life, that some kind of down the earth events that makes you think, "Am I really alive?", or "Am I just a floating organism observing things"

Questions keep on popping out of my head, (poink , poink, poink)

Loveless: Prayer

Prayer

I am here before you

Asking for your guidance and light

Begging for your mercy and forgiveness

Shield me from evil and darkness

Enforce my armor with your blessings

With my will, might and my whole spirit 

I offer you myself 

Give me strength..

Given all the possibilities and decisions in life
You were always there for me
It is only fair that I must offer myself to you
For all the gifts
The unlimited blessings
The never ending guidance, protection and the strength
That you have given me til the end of my life

I can offer you nothing except my faith, love and my whole life..
 I ask for more
For I am a selfish being
I commit more mistakes
But you always have in your heart to forgive me
For you are merciful and forgiving
You always have it in you to prioritize others rather than yourself
 You accept them wholeheartedly
Even if you know what they are and who they are
You are still willing to bring them in your home

Your are the only one
I will believe in, pray, trust and respect
For you,
I will gladly offer you my life..

"You are the only one"

Heartless: Sleepness Nights (8)

Sleepness Nights

It's been a week long since my tasteless slumber

I've tried everything I could to reach you

But still

You are so far away

I have mustered every ounce of strength I have 

To climb the walls around me

I have forgotten what is like to dream of you again

Here I am

Hoping that I will be free 

From your curse

From the chain that binds my feet

From the nightmare that you keep on engraving inside my mind

"What is it that you want from me?"

I asked in my pool of memories...

"I want to be free"

Loveless:Isolation

Isolation

I've pulled myself away from reality

Closed my mind from the world

Pushed others away that hinders my path

Gave up everything just to reach my certain place

A place of where you can't see me anymore

A life of solitude

I did now want this kind of life

But fate made me the person who I am 

I made it through this just to let you know

That I don't want any part of your life

You have to understand 

That some things are not meant to be

Every stories have to end the way you dont want them to be

 

I'm sorry if I have to be this way 

Sorry if you have to go through this pain

But I gave everything away

"So that you won't feel betrayed anymore"

Heartless ~Night 7~

How many months has it been since you last talked to me 

With all of your heart and sincerity

You despise me 

Yet you still held me 

as if it we are the only persons left in the whole world

So what now, I asked you..

But no words came out from you..

As we continued the night. .

Silence dug deeper in our memory

Sad feeling but the air is not suffocating between us

Rather, it seems like a blissful and warm feeling

I wondered why I feel this way

So once again

I tried to reach with you 

Only that, I did not use any words or gestures

I just simply looked you in the eyes 

And a flash of images suddenly appeared in my memory

I then came up with a realization

No words can weigh much more 

than a simple picture of you standing right in front of me

With all love and sincerity 

With nothing else except a simple look in your eyes...

Loveless:Sparks

"I see nothing but sparks in your eyes"

Everyday I thought of giving up for the ones I love

But deep inside of me

You were there

You wont even give me a chance of giving up my dreams

You were always there for me

 Even though I shunned you out of my life..

Still you gave me a reason not to loose hope 

You are my brilliance..

You are my shimmering light

My guide, My way towards a blissful life

I am weak without you

I can never be myself if it wasn't for you..

I see nothing but sparks in your eyes..

That never ending light shinning like a star

Gazing down upon me

As I look up..

I see nothing but you

Your Aura that transcends that of the gods 

 It's like you are my natural guardian angel

My peace, My hope and My love

May you always protect me..

Maker of Souls

"I am Myself"

I am the ruler of my own world

The maker of my own destiny

The meaning of my own peace and justice

I carve my own way to eternal life

I decide what's right and what's not.. 

I am the ruler of my own world

I create my own life

The way I talk

The way I deal with others

The way I see the ugliness of the world

 I am my own

I am the ruler of my own world

I take what's righfully mine and disregard what's not

I feed my own self satisfaction through the tragedy of others beneath me

I make my own rules and principles

I am the blade of my soul

I am myself..

 

Give me Strength

I'm weak

Never been able to surpass my fate

So give me strength 

To overcome those obstacles around me

To challenge the highest possible wall 

That I may encounter

Give me strength

For I am weak without you by my side

Stand by me

Enlighten the darkness that sleeps inside of me

Help me break these chains that binds my heart

Give me strength 

For I am nothing but a boy trying to find its purpose

Light the fire that once fueled me towards greatness

You are my hope that gives me the power

To craft the broken pieces that was once my armor and shield

You are my strength

My life

Destiny..

Hearts Day..

         Valentines is just around the corner, some are happy celebrating the hearts day, but others are as bitter as well. Well, not all love is expected to be present on the occasion. As a matter of fact, others may view it as a bitter celebration especially the brokenhearted people. You can't really blame them if they see it that way.

         A lot of couple will be very much happy to spend time together this coming Valentines not because it is obligatory or anything like that, but we have to take in mind the true meaning of Valentines day. It is to strengthen and make the bond between couples much more stronger than they had right now. We have to realize that Valentines is not only a one day celebration, but it is a day to day between couples and partners in life.

 

I'm pretty sure a lot of you lovers out there are going to make great memories on Valentines.. ^_^ My only wish for you folks...

"Love your partner as you love yourself, make a wish together and record a lot of memories as you go along the road to a happy life."       

Just Saying #1

The whole world is pointing out that the one who controls the entire process of being human is the individual itself, but in my opinion, it is the world whose the one controlling the way people want to live.

I realize that the world would be a better place if the leaders of each country would prioritize its people rather than their own desires and needs. I don't have the right to complain or anything but I just thought how nice it would be if everything would just be in a proper and well thought process to avoid complicated conflicts that would ruin your life forever..

Just saying ^_^.. no arguments whatsoever here.. just plain random thinking..

Timeless..

The thought of being so worthless

At the time you are being needed

But you can't help but think that everything else is gone..

Then you are being left to ponder on a thought in the corner of your mind

Wondering...

If you could stand up once again to the challenges being given to you..

Chances are equal

It only depends on how you use those chances as weapons for battle

A battle you can either lose or win..

 

Only the strongest will survive..

An epic everlasting battle inside of you

Haunting you to the very last bone of your body

Trying and always be trying to get over the problems of life

Time will surely become an obstacle that you can never win

BELIEVE..

Behind every shadow there is something to expect

Beyond the limits and corners of hesitation deep within

And buried into the soul of a reckless heart

Lies a even greater spirit that can only be achieve by a fighter

Strength, power and honor are the words of wisdom to the eyes of a believer

To the eyes of the heart

"Believe in the eyes of the heart, for it will carve a way to the answer you seek"