Wordless Wednesday #6

A Quick Thought...

"If you were to face the greatest dilemma that would change your entire life forever....


Would you take the bet?.. knowing that it can really hurt the ones you love but as a matter of fact, you are saving them against dangers and unsolved misunderstandings..


It's like you are sacrificing yourself for others but in return you are hated for it.."

Just a thought I would like to share with you all since we are face with a lot of questions that we have to think of carefully before answering them because our decisions will not only affect ourselves, but also the people around us. Especially our family and love ones.

End of The Month #5

This post is supposed to be written in the last day of November.. ^_^

Wew... I missed a lot of days thinking a lot of things, plus the hectic schedule I had last month..
Well anyways, last month was pretty much my dying month because of the fact that I had a lot of problems to solve on my own and pretty much how I dodge a huge bullet in front of me.

I had a lot of nightmares during the night and a lot of stressful scenarios during the day. How I withstand it?.. Simple.. I just simply eat, pray a lot and emote? ^_^.. Yes.. I've been very emotional lately, because of the fact that I had a lot of fights and misunderstandings with my girlfriend, I've been pushing myself to things I didn't know and worst part of it.. I loose all the pride that I had in myself and I have to regain it quickly because, well, I know pride is not a good thing but for me it's not completely bad either, it's just a matter of how you use it to yourself and to the people around you...

Even though last month was a very tiring month for me, but still I learned a lot from it.. The mistakes and errors that I have made me realize that some things are not meant to be no matter how much you try and try to gain that certain thing. There are what you call limits, a limit on how you give and gain trust with people, a limit on how you should love and receive love in return but one thing you should not put your limitations on.... The power of prayer and how you believe in your faith with your God.. :) ^_^ (:

Christmas is just right around the corner everyone ^_^ wish you all the best with your life...

Silent days..

I am here....

Waiting for you

Even if its just a glimpse of you

A message

A sign

A note

 Whatever it is 

As long as it is a part of you

Is it too much to ask?

While your there laughing so happy with him

I am here torturing myself.... 

Over you 

Because you left me here all alone 

With nothing else 

Except pain..

You are walking alongside with him

Holding hands together
His arms wrap around you

Like we used to..

You are taking him to places 

we used to go..

The footprints we left on the beach

The food we used to eat

The places we used to hang out with

You are leaving me out of it...

The memories and dreams we made together

Thrown away like pieces of trash

But here I am

Trying to find those pieces 

Trying to mold them together

To create another dream of us

Still in the end..

It is only me left...

No more you..

Heartless ~=Nightmare=~

I've been wondering why, my dreams were never that happy, enjoyable, instead, it was all horrible, anger and deceit were all I felt in my heart whenever I had dreams about you...

In one nightmare I had, you left me all alone without saying a word, no eye contact, no nothing...
I tried to chase you but you were so far away, my feet cannot move as if it was paralyzed ...
I tried to shout your name but no sound came out from my mouth as if I was mute...
I don't know what to do anymore except to reach out my hand to you as if you were just there an inch away from me...I kept on hoping....

Another dream I had or rather another nightmare about you...
You were with someone else. I was devastated by the sight of you and that other guy your with...
I was just there looking at you straight in the eyes and you were looking back at me as if I was nothing but a worthless trash.. I had nothing else left to do except just to stand there.. It was a painful image left in my memory...

The fact that there were all my dreams.. But I had no control over them..





I still couldn't  have you even if it was just a dream.. A sad thought indeed -_-....

Reminiscence...

Did it ever occur to you all, that every time we wake up every morning, we tend to remember each and every details of what happened in our lives. Especially the past, we are what we are because of the past. We became mature enough to handle our own problems because of the mistakes we once experience in the past...

People who experienced pain and suffering from their previous life tends to forget their past but the past is not that easy to forget, especially if it had a big impact in your life. I for one, had experienced a lot of things in life, be it painful, sad, happy moments... But I never wanted to forget any of it, because they are all precious memories that made me what I am today.

Sure there are a lot of traumatizing memories that gives us reason to shut down those pathetic scenarios in our life but no matter what we do, we will always remember it, that is why it is better to face and challenge our fears than to keep on running away from it. Just like the parts of our body, memories are like the embodiment of what we might become in the future....

I wake up each day, thinking if I could redo my past, my history but there are some things that made me say " If I redid my past, I would have never met the people that I love in the present, I would have never experienced the happy and enjoyable moments that I have in my family and friends today"..

That's why, rather than changing your past, keep on remembering it ^_^...

Keep on remembering the painful things that made you strong as you are today...

Keep on remembering the happy moments that made you feel so alive and thankful...

Keep on remembering the love that you missed so much and never felt....

And then I wake up each day, reminiscing my past, that reminded me that

"I AM THE RULER OF MY OWN WORLD"