The Colors

( This is purely based on my opinion ^_^)

Have you ever thought about the meaning of different colors of life?..
These are the meanings I thought about in a Loveless way..


White- Color of Loneliness
Gold- Color of Emptiness
Blue- Color of Depression
Green- Color of Impurities
Red- Color of Pain
Orange- Color of Betrayal
Yellow- Color Deciet
Silver- Color of Despair
Gray- Color of Coldness


All these colors amounts to the color black because of the fact that the color of being empty is even worse than the color of death itself...

Early Friday Morning...

Another random thought from me ^_^...

I woke up 5am early this friday morning because I thought I have something big to finish, something that could change my life forever but I realize it was only just a dream...lols.
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I washed my face, did my morning rituals but still sleepy after all that, so I lied down again to sleep but I could not sleep anymore, so here I am writing some random post in my blog..

So anyways, there's not much to do this day except to wait for an important email from my girlfriend since she is already starting her career as a nurse but on the other hand, I am still here doing nothing..toinkz.. what a bum life I have right now ^_^..

I know I've written something new for my blog since all my previous posts talked about love, about loveless, quotes, poems but hey, my blog really talks about life.
Well life in my opinion of course since we all have our different perspective when it comes to the generalization of life. I hope you all appreciate my blog, never mind the grammar and the English (haha). I'll try to improve my writing skills eventually.

So here's a little something for all of you cloud lovers out there..^_^. I took this picture last 5 months ago at the rooftop of my house.

It's more of like someone's hands stretching out for something hmmmm... what do you all think?

Quote From Loveless

"I was wrong, you were right"
"I was naive to think for an easy way"
"I was a fool for believing but you are worth it"

Every time these lines crossed my mind, I end up in the crossroads of my life..
I hope and keep on hoping for everything to be okay
but in the end,

Hope left me hanging at the edge of a cliff..

Every single persons I met in my life told me that


"Only a fool would try to cling with false hope"
"Only a fool would try everything for a false dream"
"Only a fool would keep on believing that everything else is fine"

Cupid asked me:..

"Would you try to be that fool?"


~I would rather be that fool who loves her,
cared for her,
be with her for eternity,
to die beside her,
than a fool who never tried anything from the very start~

"I can't promise anything because sometimes promises are made to be broken,
instead, I asked her,
if she would be willing to stay by me..."

A Fool and a Lover

~A Fool Or A Lover~

~I was strolling near a snow colored gate where I saw a little boy holding a piece of note in his hand, I asked him..

"What are you doing here in this cold shivering night all alone?"

He looked up to me and replied..

"I'm waiting for someone.."

I asked him again..

"What are you holding in your hand?, Is that something worth waiting for the whole cold night?"

He answered in a soft tone voice..

"Yes."

Out of curiosity, I asked him if he would let me show what he was holding in his hand..
And he gave me the note with his head faced down..

I read his note and suddenly, tears started pouring down from my eyes..

I looked at him and asked him..

"How long are you going to wait?"

He answered finally with a smiling face and a joyful voice..

"For as long as I can because if I leave right now, she would never know what I wrote in this special letter"

"Even if it takes you forever?"

"Yes, as long as I have her angelic image in my memory.."

I walked away after my conversation with that mysterious boy, I looked up above and whispered to myself..
"Can he really wait forever for someone who doesn't even care for him?. He is just fooling himself if he thinks that he could win over the fate that has been given to him, but then again he is a fool because he knows what true love is..

Life? Change? Jokes?....

~The New Beginning~

Love is such a mysterious feeling..

You really thought that everything is in place, no lies, no regrets, just pure happiness..
One moment you are really sure of the feelings you keep on holding. You confirmed it, you tried to bind it...

And another moment, you are completely blinded and just in a blink of an eye, you loose everything you worked for..

And you asked yourself "Why?"

Why is it there is no such thing as eternal love or happiness?..
and all of the sudden, there is a deep small voice whispering to you...

"Do not worry..
Even if your mind had been filled with nothing except the touch of love that you had lost, your heart will still be the same no matter what, because since ancient times, the myth, fairy tales, folk old stories, it's always been the heart whose doing all the right and the wrong things in life..


Even if you lost some of your memories in your mind, your heart will still beat the same rhythm as it was before..


Even if you can't feel the same sensation that you felt the first time you were in love, your heart will still feel the same feeling over and over until its last pump.."

Windows Of Our Soul

Have you ever ever wondered why we can't see the other side of our life?. . .
What's the shape of our soul?. . .
What color does it reflects?. . .
What tremendous power does it possess?. . .

Somehow, we never seem to stop thinking about all this questions going on in our head. We tried to think logically and rationally, but we can never achieve the answer we seek, instead of deriving into a conclusion, we ask for more of it.

We yearn for the impossible, we want to taste life in a different prospective, but the question lies beneath our soul. We can never comprehend the mystery about our soul.
A question that is misleading us astray from our path. Leaving nothing behind without a trace but still can be track so easily.

What is it about our soul anyway?..
As you peek through the window, you can see a form, an aura emitting an enormous yet gentle presence. Therefore, we can only think of one thing..

It is always within us, in ourselves, in the life which we decided from the very start...