Heartless: Sleepness Nights (8)

Sleepness Nights

It's been a week long since my tasteless slumber

I've tried everything I could to reach you

But still

You are so far away

I have mustered every ounce of strength I have 

To climb the walls around me

I have forgotten what is like to dream of you again

Here I am

Hoping that I will be free 

From your curse

From the chain that binds my feet

From the nightmare that you keep on engraving inside my mind

"What is it that you want from me?"

I asked in my pool of memories...

"I want to be free"

Loveless:Isolation

Isolation

I've pulled myself away from reality

Closed my mind from the world

Pushed others away that hinders my path

Gave up everything just to reach my certain place

A place of where you can't see me anymore

A life of solitude

I did now want this kind of life

But fate made me the person who I am 

I made it through this just to let you know

That I don't want any part of your life

You have to understand 

That some things are not meant to be

Every stories have to end the way you dont want them to be

 

I'm sorry if I have to be this way 

Sorry if you have to go through this pain

But I gave everything away

"So that you won't feel betrayed anymore"

Heartless ~Night 7~

How many months has it been since you last talked to me 

With all of your heart and sincerity

You despise me 

Yet you still held me 

as if it we are the only persons left in the whole world

So what now, I asked you..

But no words came out from you..

As we continued the night. .

Silence dug deeper in our memory

Sad feeling but the air is not suffocating between us

Rather, it seems like a blissful and warm feeling

I wondered why I feel this way

So once again

I tried to reach with you 

Only that, I did not use any words or gestures

I just simply looked you in the eyes 

And a flash of images suddenly appeared in my memory

I then came up with a realization

No words can weigh much more 

than a simple picture of you standing right in front of me

With all love and sincerity 

With nothing else except a simple look in your eyes...

Loveless:Sparks

"I see nothing but sparks in your eyes"

Everyday I thought of giving up for the ones I love

But deep inside of me

You were there

You wont even give me a chance of giving up my dreams

You were always there for me

 Even though I shunned you out of my life..

Still you gave me a reason not to loose hope 

You are my brilliance..

You are my shimmering light

My guide, My way towards a blissful life

I am weak without you

I can never be myself if it wasn't for you..

I see nothing but sparks in your eyes..

That never ending light shinning like a star

Gazing down upon me

As I look up..

I see nothing but you

Your Aura that transcends that of the gods 

 It's like you are my natural guardian angel

My peace, My hope and My love

May you always protect me..

Maker of Souls

"I am Myself"

I am the ruler of my own world

The maker of my own destiny

The meaning of my own peace and justice

I carve my own way to eternal life

I decide what's right and what's not.. 

I am the ruler of my own world

I create my own life

The way I talk

The way I deal with others

The way I see the ugliness of the world

 I am my own

I am the ruler of my own world

I take what's righfully mine and disregard what's not

I feed my own self satisfaction through the tragedy of others beneath me

I make my own rules and principles

I am the blade of my soul

I am myself..

 

Give me Strength

I'm weak

Never been able to surpass my fate

So give me strength 

To overcome those obstacles around me

To challenge the highest possible wall 

That I may encounter

Give me strength

For I am weak without you by my side

Stand by me

Enlighten the darkness that sleeps inside of me

Help me break these chains that binds my heart

Give me strength 

For I am nothing but a boy trying to find its purpose

Light the fire that once fueled me towards greatness

You are my hope that gives me the power

To craft the broken pieces that was once my armor and shield

You are my strength

My life

Destiny..