Windows Of Our Soul

Have you ever ever wondered why we can't see the other side of our life?. . .
What's the shape of our soul?. . .
What color does it reflects?. . .
What tremendous power does it possess?. . .

Somehow, we never seem to stop thinking about all this questions going on in our head. We tried to think logically and rationally, but we can never achieve the answer we seek, instead of deriving into a conclusion, we ask for more of it.

We yearn for the impossible, we want to taste life in a different prospective, but the question lies beneath our soul. We can never comprehend the mystery about our soul.
A question that is misleading us astray from our path. Leaving nothing behind without a trace but still can be track so easily.

What is it about our soul anyway?..
As you peek through the window, you can see a form, an aura emitting an enormous yet gentle presence. Therefore, we can only think of one thing..

It is always within us, in ourselves, in the life which we decided from the very start...

End of the Month # 2

Another month has ended with a lot of mysteries about life yet unsolved, questions left unanswered and more problems that has yet to come. Although I can say that this can be considered as a fruitful month because of the fact that I've experienced a lot of things I never learned before, I've discovered a lot of new things that made me realize that there is more to life than simply being alive. :)

About my career, my career as a nurse has just started yet I feel a lot of pressure and stress. I don't know why I hate my career but I guess I don't have any other choices left but to face it strong and come back harder and a lot wiser than I was before.

"I know this is the career that life gave to me"
These are the words I always thought about every single morning I wake up to start my day...

About my relationship,

Well, my love story is pretty deep and very mysterious to begin with.. But all I can say about her, is that I love my girlfriend. I never had any regrets letting her inside =).
The road to love is very rough and a lot of sacrifices had to be made but I know she is worth it.. ^_^

About life...

Hmmmm maybe I can say now that life isn't easy as I thought it was. Money is the overall problem of almost all the people nowadays but if you try to think clear and rational as hard as you can. You will probably say to yourself that money is not a problem. It's yourself.. It's always on yourself because of the fact that every decision that you make changes your life and everybody else around you. Every step that you make changes every direction and paths that you will mostly head on towards a new goal.... Life is indeed mysterious, that is why you have to make use of your time wisely ^_^

*Loveless: Devil Within

 

            You let yourself driven by hatred and you come across the line where you are given the chance to have eternal happiness but a lifetime of regrets.

Would you choose that kind of choice?..

The conscience deep inside of you is trembling in fear, fear that is very unknown to you..

Fear that can destroy the whole essence of life..

Fighting your demons doesn't really mean you have to destroy them completely with all your might..

Sometimes it's better to keep some for your own good.. ^_^

~Happiness

This is one of those things that makes life beautiful and at the same time a mystery...

Happiness is related to a lot of things, it can be in any shape, size, form, element, factor, just about anything that encompasses life..

The most common form of happiness is in the form of love...
Love for the person of your life...
Love for family..
Love for friends..
Love for the things you treasure the most in your life...

Almost 90% of the world's population are asking themselves

"What is happiness?"..

"How can I achieve my own happiness?"..

"Is it even existing?"..

True this is a very difficult thing to achieve, a lot of sacrifices has to be made in order to get this..
But in the end you will tell yourself..



It is worth it.

Loveless: Doubts VS. Trust

~Majority of the world's population is in the side of doubts against everything about life...

Were in only a few remains at the side of trust because they rely mostly on the power of pure love...

And those few are considered fools..

The irony of life?..~

The Fragility of Love

I am a fool to believe that love is eternal, permanent and cannot be demolish so easily..
But unfortunately I am wrong about the strength and power of love..


Love is fragile..
And can be manipulated so easily..
Love is weakness..
And can be used against you..
Love is not eternal..
And can definitely be broken into millions of pieces without hope of molding it back again..


If you are stupid enough to think that love has the power to conquer all hatred..
Then you are mistaken..
Surprisingly, it has a direct opposite effect on you..


For me, it has the power to change you into someone you hated most in your entire life..
It supposed to transform your hatred into love but only disappointment meets you in the end..


You will gravely suffer if you put too much trust in the fragility of love..
Coz its pain is much worse than death itself..

-=Trap in the middle of a mystery=-

Is it just me or something is missing?


At some point of our life, we question ourselves as to why are we born in this land??
Do we have a mission? a calling? a goal? or we were born for nothing?


I realized this word called doubts that came across my mind lately because of the fact that I'm already a member of the society but still, I don't know why I was born.
It feels like I'm missing something important that I should be searching for but the question is...
What is that something that I'm missing in my life??


We are all given the choice to make for our lives, no one else could make that decision except yourself. At first, we dream, we make our target, we set a goal from the very start..
And as we head towards that certain goal, we stumble upon other things that hinder us from reaching that goal and all we could do is to face that reality in order for us to stay at the right track.
But what if we are led astray to another path??
Will it defeat our purpose for reaching our mission in life??


I've been reflecting almost every day in order to find that certain something that I'm missing in my life but it seems to me that it's a wasted effort because it doesn't rely on yourself alone. 
It relies entirely on the people around you.

The arrow that you shot from the moment you were born was certainly headed at the direction above..

~Mystery Of Life~

~Loveless….

Another time for my life to continue the way I want but it seems that it doesn’t go the way I want it to be and I think the reason for that kind of twisted fate and the sudden change of my destiny is you, The one who changed my life was you, who crossed my life and understands me the most…Even though time is against us that I only met you in a glimpse of that single memory..Is it because of the different paths that we shared for each other but for me it was heaven when I met you, its like I saw a Goddess for the very first time in my life….I don’t know what you thought of me but for me I am thankful to God that I met you and if only there was still enough time left just to be with you, I would really tell you about my one and only true feelings for you…That’s why I asked for God’s help to lend me this borrowed time that I would like to spend with her just enough to tell her how I really feel for her..My only wish is for her to be happy, that’s all I ever wanted even though it won’t benefit me..still for me to see you happy would be enough for me…

If…

I was left in the middle of darkness, I hope I can see a small light of hope, even if it is only a brickering small light, I just want to know how you really feel for me because it has been hard on my part to pretend what I dont want to be. I hope our paths will remain the same even if it is years from now, my feelings for you will never change, you are the only one that can complete my life, my one and only angel that showed me what is like to be alive and taught me the true meaning of happiness, I hope you will never forget me for you are the only one engraved in my heart..Till next time my love….Goodbye~

Loveless: Alone

Have you ever felt the feeling of being alone for almost the rest of your life??


Sometimes I wonder How did I even survive this long without someone's help except the help from above.
It feels like you are being worthless..
Being rejected, being ignored by your family, friends and even the one who is very close to you..


It's the worst feeling a human could ever endure for the rest of his life..


Do you have what it takes to endure this kind of feeling??


Especially when you thought that you have everything in your grasp but as a matter of fact, you don't even have one single dream left in you.
Especially when you thought that you've been pulled up by your love but in the end it is still the same old life, same old story, same chapter...


They all come and leave you behind..
And the worse part of it..
They don't leave you unscathed, instead they left you a totally worthless  feeling you could never imagine to have..


The feeling so much worse than death itself..