Missing my lover

Missing my lover 

Every moment I spend, 

A day without her by my side is like a having a leech that slowly sips away the blood from my veins

As I turn side to side...

Wandering everywhere to places we used to hang out with

But still I couldn't find her anywhere 

No matter how hard I try to reach out for her in the light

Calling her name as tears reflecting the bitterness of the skies above my never ending sorrows

Time is indeed cruel..

I can only wait and wait for the right moment 

Until the last breathe I could muster

Til the last ounce of strength I have 

And I could finally say to her 

How much I missed her

Her smile...

Her laugh...

Her tears of joy...

Her touch....

Her warmth...

Her happiness....

Her forever image that won't burn out in my mind 

The only one that could bring out the best of me

She alone can bring a thousand tears from my living self of total happiness

I miss her so much..My lover...

Hopeless, Euphoria, Loveless

Credits to the owner of the picture: chrno(minitokyo.net)


 

Love like no other can give

Hoping like there is no tomorrow

Feeling happy all the time

Touching the heavens with your bare hands

Giving it all to the other

Leaving nothing for yourself at all

Looking forward for a brighter future

Hoping that everything will go as planned

Not only for yourself 

But for the both of you

All ends as a happy ending

A fairy tale

A romance like no other

But reality bites you a hundredfold 

Piercing your heart with a thousand lances 

Grasping your heart

Holding it like a crumpled paper

With no escaping the pain

 Embracing it

Regretting every decisions that you made

A shock of vengeance flowing down your spine

Crying with tears filled with darkness

You can't speak your heart anymore

But words begins flowing out 

Losing your mind out 

Giving up hope and all other forms of euphoria

And you begin to think that

The ray of light has left you completely

 You wanted to stand up

But the pain keeps on holding you down

Frustrations...

Disappointments....

Anger....

Insanity....

 "Loveless"

Power

As my body falls down the ground

I still feel indestructible on the inside

Unlimited Energy coursing through my veins

The feeling of being undefeated

But most of the time 

I may crawl

Unsure if I can reach you

To defeat you

Always losing my way around you

I may fall down again and again

I might not fight anymore

 But I will always come back 

Stronger than I can ever be

Striving to be the one

The one person I can be

To give my very best i everything I do

In anyway I can

Finding the best solution

The greatness within

The untouched potential that even I am unaware of

So just you wait and see

Because no matter how hard you try to escape

I will always come to you

To challenge you

To conquer every hurdle

I will always believe

In a fight called life

 

Loveless: Prayer

Prayer

I am here before you

Asking for your guidance and light

Begging for your mercy and forgiveness

Shield me from evil and darkness

Enforce my armor with your blessings

With my will, might and my whole spirit 

I offer you myself 

Give me strength..

Given all the possibilities and decisions in life
You were always there for me
It is only fair that I must offer myself to you
For all the gifts
The unlimited blessings
The never ending guidance, protection and the strength
That you have given me til the end of my life

I can offer you nothing except my faith, love and my whole life..
 I ask for more
For I am a selfish being
I commit more mistakes
But you always have in your heart to forgive me
For you are merciful and forgiving
You always have it in you to prioritize others rather than yourself
 You accept them wholeheartedly
Even if you know what they are and who they are
You are still willing to bring them in your home

Your are the only one
I will believe in, pray, trust and respect
For you,
I will gladly offer you my life..

"You are the only one"

Heartless: Sleepness Nights (8)

Sleepness Nights

It's been a week long since my tasteless slumber

I've tried everything I could to reach you

But still

You are so far away

I have mustered every ounce of strength I have 

To climb the walls around me

I have forgotten what is like to dream of you again

Here I am

Hoping that I will be free 

From your curse

From the chain that binds my feet

From the nightmare that you keep on engraving inside my mind

"What is it that you want from me?"

I asked in my pool of memories...

"I want to be free"

Loveless:Isolation

Isolation

I've pulled myself away from reality

Closed my mind from the world

Pushed others away that hinders my path

Gave up everything just to reach my certain place

A place of where you can't see me anymore

A life of solitude

I did now want this kind of life

But fate made me the person who I am 

I made it through this just to let you know

That I don't want any part of your life

You have to understand 

That some things are not meant to be

Every stories have to end the way you dont want them to be

 

I'm sorry if I have to be this way 

Sorry if you have to go through this pain

But I gave everything away

"So that you won't feel betrayed anymore"

Heartless ~Night 7~

How many months has it been since you last talked to me 

With all of your heart and sincerity

You despise me 

Yet you still held me 

as if it we are the only persons left in the whole world

So what now, I asked you..

But no words came out from you..

As we continued the night. .

Silence dug deeper in our memory

Sad feeling but the air is not suffocating between us

Rather, it seems like a blissful and warm feeling

I wondered why I feel this way

So once again

I tried to reach with you 

Only that, I did not use any words or gestures

I just simply looked you in the eyes 

And a flash of images suddenly appeared in my memory

I then came up with a realization

No words can weigh much more 

than a simple picture of you standing right in front of me

With all love and sincerity 

With nothing else except a simple look in your eyes...

Loveless:Sparks

"I see nothing but sparks in your eyes"

Everyday I thought of giving up for the ones I love

But deep inside of me

You were there

You wont even give me a chance of giving up my dreams

You were always there for me

 Even though I shunned you out of my life..

Still you gave me a reason not to loose hope 

You are my brilliance..

You are my shimmering light

My guide, My way towards a blissful life

I am weak without you

I can never be myself if it wasn't for you..

I see nothing but sparks in your eyes..

That never ending light shinning like a star

Gazing down upon me

As I look up..

I see nothing but you

Your Aura that transcends that of the gods 

 It's like you are my natural guardian angel

My peace, My hope and My love

May you always protect me..

Give me Strength

I'm weak

Never been able to surpass my fate

So give me strength 

To overcome those obstacles around me

To challenge the highest possible wall 

That I may encounter

Give me strength

For I am weak without you by my side

Stand by me

Enlighten the darkness that sleeps inside of me

Help me break these chains that binds my heart

Give me strength 

For I am nothing but a boy trying to find its purpose

Light the fire that once fueled me towards greatness

You are my hope that gives me the power

To craft the broken pieces that was once my armor and shield

You are my strength

My life

Destiny..

Hearts Day..

         Valentines is just around the corner, some are happy celebrating the hearts day, but others are as bitter as well. Well, not all love is expected to be present on the occasion. As a matter of fact, others may view it as a bitter celebration especially the brokenhearted people. You can't really blame them if they see it that way.

         A lot of couple will be very much happy to spend time together this coming Valentines not because it is obligatory or anything like that, but we have to take in mind the true meaning of Valentines day. It is to strengthen and make the bond between couples much more stronger than they had right now. We have to realize that Valentines is not only a one day celebration, but it is a day to day between couples and partners in life.

 

I'm pretty sure a lot of you lovers out there are going to make great memories on Valentines.. ^_^ My only wish for you folks...

"Love your partner as you love yourself, make a wish together and record a lot of memories as you go along the road to a happy life."       

Just Saying #1

The whole world is pointing out that the one who controls the entire process of being human is the individual itself, but in my opinion, it is the world whose the one controlling the way people want to live.

I realize that the world would be a better place if the leaders of each country would prioritize its people rather than their own desires and needs. I don't have the right to complain or anything but I just thought how nice it would be if everything would just be in a proper and well thought process to avoid complicated conflicts that would ruin your life forever..

Just saying ^_^.. no arguments whatsoever here.. just plain random thinking..

Timeless..

The thought of being so worthless

At the time you are being needed

But you can't help but think that everything else is gone..

Then you are being left to ponder on a thought in the corner of your mind

Wondering...

If you could stand up once again to the challenges being given to you..

Chances are equal

It only depends on how you use those chances as weapons for battle

A battle you can either lose or win..

 

Only the strongest will survive..

An epic everlasting battle inside of you

Haunting you to the very last bone of your body

Trying and always be trying to get over the problems of life

Time will surely become an obstacle that you can never win

BELIEVE..

Behind every shadow there is something to expect

Beyond the limits and corners of hesitation deep within

And buried into the soul of a reckless heart

Lies a even greater spirit that can only be achieve by a fighter

Strength, power and honor are the words of wisdom to the eyes of a believer

To the eyes of the heart

"Believe in the eyes of the heart, for it will carve a way to the answer you seek"

 

Happy Go Lucky..

Isn't it nice just to sit around all day doing nothing?. ^_^..
Isn't it nice not to worry anything else except what kind of food are you going to eat next?.. lol..
Life is always busy and will always be..
So take time to relax and reflect because it will help you find the answer you seek..

Armor of the heart..

Shield my heart from all this pains sufferings, hatred, deceptions

Engrave a steadfast armor to protect my fragility

Lead me to a gate of eternal happiness

free me from all the darkness of this world

The heart is nothing more than a piece from a missing puzzle

waiting for a light to come to complete me,

to break these chains that entangled me,

isolated me from all the light of this world

The heart of a man is nothing without his armor

 That is why, it will continue to wither and decompose 

til nothing is left but an empty shell...

It will continue to struggle and fight it's hardest 

just to see through all this challenges in life

It will continue to fight til the end of time

Until someone will come to take away its nakedness

Clothe it with an armor forged with a hope that will last forever

An armor as thick as a dragon's scales

Hard as any metal

An aura as graceful and elegant than the god of war

The heart of a man will never be complete til that someone comes..

End of the month # 9

Wew looks like I missed a lot of "end of the month" issues here.
Well, what can I say?.. Life's been busy for me, from making a lot mistakes to learning from all of it is just too much to swallow. ^_^, but one things for sure..

Its fun to learn from all of these right?.. that's what life is all about..
Learning and experiencing a lot of things even though some of those are very hard to take in. All you need to know is that, life is all about having some fun no matter how difficult things could get ^_^..

Great thing about these experiences is that, they come in small and big packages haha... Especially at your workplace where in you will be meeting a lot of people, from strangers to friends and from certain people to annoying ones that's for sure :).. I really wanted to emphasize these people because they are also considered as a factor that will be affecting your life and how your life's experiences would turn out to be something else.. hmmmmm I would like to call them as "Influences for life's improvement"..

Oh well.. Just another rant from me I think ^_^..

Note: This article is intended for the month of May :)

I'm Poof!!!

Wew... 2 words.... I'm Poof!!!!...

Life for me is not easy as I thought it would be. Especially being a nurse. Okay this is another random rant from my personal life, So excuse my rantings here ^_^.. I'm sure everyone wants to talk a thing or two about their life on their blogs. hehe..

So anyways, Nurses here in our country is pretty sure rampant and very twisted because of the fact that we nurses have to graduate from a devastating 4 year college degree and after that we have to pass the gates of hell called the board exam. And no, our sacrifice doesn't stop there. Actually we have to earn experience as nurses in training (NO SALARY!!) before we can earn the title as staff nurses and guess what?.. Being a nurse in training is pretty tiresome because of the fact that we are giving our very best to pave our way of being a staff nurse but crazy as it seems. We are required to have so many trainings, attend a lot of seminar that exhaust us and by the minute we receive what we want, we are already what? 40 year old?. Lol Lol..

Oh well, the famous line we nurses always recite... "Love is service".. Lol.. I should really stop here hehehe.. well I just wanted to share it to every one especially to my fellow nurses out there who are experiencing the same situation as I am..

Good thing I have blog here, so I can really express what I can't in the real world.. ^_^..

The Joker..

Jokes are not meant to hurt but to deliver laughs and smiles in our faces..
But sometimes, it seems to have a different effect to others and to the people around us. I don't even know why they tend to misinterpret jokes that aren't that intentional or anything.

Jokes are meant to hide your true self, forms and the shape of your personality.. But as much as u try to hide your own thoughts, it will be ten times harder to accept reality itself when time the comes for you. You were wrong to think that you could hide yourself forever in eternal bliss and fake happiness..

That is why you have to be yourself when you try to joke the people around you...

There are really certain persons in your life who could see through your disguise even if you really are a joker, who could see the emptiness and burdens that you tend to keep inside..

And you can only hope that they won't be affected by your own problems because as far as you can persevere through life. There is no one else you could rely on except yourself in the end..

Jokes are really nothing but words, but if you try to deepen your insight.. You would see it differently than others would..

Reality itself is speaking in your mind..

Wordless Wednesday # 10

Life is Limitless...

Source: http://darkroom.joachimbrink.com/2009/05/37-ain-soph-aur.html

Passage...

In every direction there is always light..

You just got to find the effort to make through every path of your life..

Greatness is within each and every one of us..