Saturday, December 31, 2011

End of The Month #6




Friday, December 30, 2011

The Peak of Love

It was recently our 1st anniversary together.
I got a lot of things to be prepared of, especially my feelings for her and what I've felt for her for the past 12 months.
I feared that I won't be able to reach out to her..
I was too afraid that I won't be able to touch her heart..

I was wrong..
She was the one who reached onto me..
I was very stupid because I thought I am the only one
Who is always reaching out to her

But here I am..
Completely blinded by my own selfishness.
Here I am,
Standing right in front of her,
Looking at her straight into those gazing eyes..

She gave me strength that guided me for the rest of my years..
She gave me warmth that I never felt before
A feeling worth dying for,
A very mystical, amazing feeling that I could not comprehend by words..
There's no one else like her..


I say to myself, because of the fact that she is...without a doubt..

"My Only One"

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Teardrops on Christmas

Today is Christmas eve..
I know the feeling, that certain feeling..
Where you always try to look around every corners of the streets..
Trying to look for something worthwhile..
I couldn't face the facts that Christmas is already here
But you are not..

Every time I open each and every presents I have..
I think of you..
Each time I pray and forget the thoughts of you..
You stare at me blankly in my open mind..
I don't remember when was the last time we spend Christmas together
But I always remember your smile
Every time you look above the skies 
During the cold nights when we were together..

Christmas may not be as it was before..
But your words will always be with me

Engraved in my heart

"Merry Christmas...My Love"

Saturday, December 24, 2011

~Christmas: A season we can never forget~

Christmas is in the air...
Every where I go..
I see lights, the atmosphere of the holiday season
I hear songs filled with joy..

But here I am, so stressed out because of the unexpected things that occurred recently in my life, but still, we have to continue pushing forward especially this Christmas ^_^, where in there are a lot of foods!! lols.. Wish you all the best everyone!..

Happy Birthday Jesus Christ...


Wednesday, December 14, 2011

"Woke up on the wrong side of the bed"

If you were to face a continuous bad mornings and events that doesn't usually occur every time you wake up, what would be your first reaction?.. Surprised and irritable right?.. toinkz..

Christmas is fast approaching but here I am catching a bad cold because of weather changes everyday. Here I am, trying to adjust to every tiny little things I call insecurities in my life. Here I am trying to finish the project that I still haven't started.. lols.. Ranting has been a habit which is not good, so before I start ranting about my life, lets go to the main topic at hand ^_^...

I know almost everybody experience once or twice or almost every time in their lives, waking up on the wrong side of their bed, which is a very troublesome event because of the fact that instead of starting your morning right and clean, you end up being trap in the middle of a mystery and left with a very big question at the top of your head ^_^..

So if this happens to you, what will you do?...

In my own opinion, you should just try to forget about that certain thing and try to start with your morning rituals or if not. Try to eat your breakfast because you will certainly be empty headed if your stomach is also empty, and if that doesn't work. I suggest you should just sleep for a little because you might wake up again in the right side of your bed :).. lols

Another random thought I guess since I am very bored right now with nothing else to do except stare at my blog thinking and thinking what should I write next.. :)

Well Good day to all of you ^_^.. thanks for dropping by here..

Friday, December 9, 2011


~A darkened Life~

I'm sorry, but it is really difficult for us to be together..
I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings but this is the best I could think of for the both of us..
I'm sorry... I'm sorry
But I really did love you from the deepest chambers of my heart...

As I walk towards my end, 
completely blinded by the pain that binds me completely..
The pain that is aching inside of me..
As these lines whispers through my ears,
" I'm sorry but I love you"

I want to cry my heart out, 
but tears just won't come out..
I want to stop at the very moment of my life,
but my feelings are too strong to overcome..
I don't want to loose all the hope I can gather,
but the pain is slowly killing me from within..

The moment I stop walking,
will be the very moment that I would stop loving you..

So I walk endlessly,
without thinking anything else, except my love for you..
Even if my feet hurts..
Even if my vision blurs..
Even if my mind has gone empty..
Even if the entire life energy I have has gone away...

I won't stop...
Til Death itself comes to me..

Loveless: Death

Monday, December 5, 2011

A Quick Thought...

"If you were to face the greatest dilemma that would change your entire life forever....

Would you take the bet?.. knowing that it can really hurt the ones you love but as a matter of fact, you are saving them against dangers and unsolved misunderstandings..

It's like you are sacrificing yourself for others but in return you are hated for it.."

Just a thought I would like to share with you all since we are face with a lot of questions that we have to think of carefully before answering them because our decisions will not only affect ourselves, but also the people around us. Especially our family and love ones.

Friday, December 2, 2011

End of The Month #5

This post is supposed to be written in the last day of November.. ^_^

Wew... I missed a lot of days thinking a lot of things, plus the hectic schedule I had last month..
Well anyways, last month was pretty much my dying month because of the fact that I had a lot of problems to solve on my own and pretty much how I dodge a huge bullet in front of me.

I had a lot of nightmares during the night and a lot of stressful scenarios during the day. How I withstand it?.. Simple.. I just simply eat, pray a lot and emote? ^_^.. Yes.. I've been very emotional lately, because of the fact that I had a lot of fights and misunderstandings with my girlfriend, I've been pushing myself to things I didn't know and worst part of it.. I loose all the pride that I had in myself and I have to regain it quickly because, well, I know pride is not a good thing but for me it's not completely bad either, it's just a matter of how you use it to yourself and to the people around you...

Even though last month was a very tiring month for me, but still I learned a lot from it.. The mistakes and errors that I have made me realize that some things are not meant to be no matter how much you try and try to gain that certain thing. There are what you call limits, a limit on how you give and gain trust with people, a limit on how you should love and receive love in return but one thing you should not put your limitations on.... The power of prayer and how you believe in your faith with your God.. :) ^_^ (:

Christmas is just right around the corner everyone ^_^ wish you all the best with your life...


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